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April 18, 2010
Alive to what's real
I was interested in Marzena's wondering about what makes someone come alive?
In my own experience the realization that even when I wanted to, I had no power to change the events that had rocked my world, so having to accept and live what I could not change was my wake up call.
I now know that I have no control over nature and no control over other people, all I can do is try to live each day in the best and kindest way possible.
I have the power to decide whether to react to unthoughtful or unkind actions or to allow them to wash through me and accept they come from a hurting place in others.
When I've had to walk a painful path, I've learnt to stay with the feelings until with acceptance they have transformed into something else, I do not have a word for it, but it is just 'a sense that whatever comes my way it will be ok'. I do not understand it but I am held by it. I've discoverd a BIG TRUST, which is a coming home for a Enneagram number six.
I still sometimes lose it for a while but I am getting better at recognising when I have lost touch with this reality and I can find my way back.
So I guess my answer to the question posed by Marzena would be
'To celebrate, to rejoice, to dance, to cry, to mourn, to be still, to live whatever is real that's what makes me come alive.'
Posted by Shelliz at April 18, 2010 04:37 PM