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November 05, 2008
Indestructible
It's hard losing your alter-ego. Certainly not to be tried at home, folks! Indeed, it can feel like your own personal annihilation.
This has been my experience anyway. Since my alter-ego of the Bojangles Mattress Bank sadly passed away, I have been truly wondering 'What's left?' I've been drinking my coffee and cleaning the sink, sure - but wondering if I still exist.
Terrible terrors flood over me and through me, unbidden and unwanted. At one point I was sat on the sofa, convinced that if I changed channel I would disintegrate. Mad! (Especially as I was watching 'The X Factor' which no one should stay with for too long.)
But you know what? It seems I'm fine, and have not been annihilated. Whatever has died was clearly not essential to me. Indeed, my psyche feels rather fresh and envigourated this morning. The energy of life flows through my body and soul, cleansed in some way, from absurd imaginings.
I exist. I'm substantial. And - I strongly suspect - indestructible.
I'm back - so expect fireworks!!!!!!
(Discerning readers will note I haven't lost any of my pungent topicality. 'Expect fireworks'...wonderful stuff...edgy...so, like, now...that sort of thing...)
Posted by Mr Bojangles at November 5, 2008 11:13 AM