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May 25, 2008
Identity are you out there?
When I was younger, I was always very interested in little quirks that others had. Things that they consistantly did that were part of their identity. I myself felt I had none. For this reason I would 'adopt' a quirk for myself if I particularly liked it. I once saw a friend run the tap for a whole 1 minute before she filled her glass up. She said she always did this. I found it interesting so attempted to do that myself. Of course this lasted about two days as it became rather time consuming. It also wasn't me.
As the years went by, I realised that copying things that people do is ridiculous and so I avoid doing it now.
Growing older however, it has remained important to me how I am perceived by others. I always like to be described as something, either positive or negative, simply to gain some sense of self. So far, all most people say is friendly or stubborn. In 24 years I hope there is more to me than that.
Now I am at my oldest so far, I know that I need to find out for myself who I am and cannot be relying on anyone else. Nor should I be caring what anyone else thinks. This is very hard however and the day I stop caring is very far away.
So...I am on the search for my identity. I don't know where it is but I know it is out there waiting to be discovered. One day.
Posted by Russell at May 25, 2008 02:09 PM